Wanted
I am not good or kind by nature, but I strive to be every day. I am far from the ideal person you deserve, yet I want so badly to become someone worth holding onto—someone who brings you light in the dark and strength when you feel fragile.
But if a time comes when I am gone, please don’t spend it missing me. I don’t want to leave behind a shadow of longing or a quiet ache in your chest. I want you to feel whole, to move forward, and to let even the memory of me fade away. Because above all else, my only true wish is for your total, unburdened happiness.
An open letter from Mr. Right
My first reblog..a good read
Dear daughters of God,
Contrary to what you have heard, I do exist. I’m no fairytale hunk with big muscles and thing for chick flicks (although, I may or may not have a man bun). So, put your daydreams of love off to the side for a minute and let me tell you what makes me, “Mr. Right” and why people keep telling you to wait for me.
The first thing I really want for you to understand is that I was not born your Mr. Right. I promise we weren’t destined to cross paths and lock eyes from across a crowded room and fall hopelessly in love. God has been working in my heart for YEARS! Do you realize what was in my heart before Christ saved me?! Of course you don’t because we haven’t met yet, but I can promise you it is equally as crazy and sinful as…
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Walls
A familiar feeling returned to my heart almost two years ago. A feeling that I only admit here in this writing. Even I never admit it with myself, that my heart keeps on beating and jumping when you’re around, that my heart is happy, so happy when you talk to me. And you know what this feeling comes with a warning that I shouldn’t and I know I should stop . I know I should not have this feeling so all this time I’m building walls upon walls until I feel safe with this emotion. Walls that I know will protect me of breaking my heart and getting hurt so much. And you know what, I realized today that it’s not enough. Today I am so much hurt, more than hurt than before. I’m hurt that I let myself fall and no one catch me that you will never ever catch me. I found that hole in my wall and I have to start fixing it.
Walls walls walls I will never ever break you and I will just wait for that someone God will send with a hammer in his hand to open it and find me there.
Reminder….
What you feel may not always be the right thing. What you see may not always be the real one.
What you hear may not be the truth. Who you are to others is not who you are to all.One thing is for sure it is right if God is in your heart.. It is real if you faithfully believe. It’s the truth cause you heard it from Him. And it is you the way He looks at you. ❤
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My Love Story
May 20, 2013
I’ve been dreaming of a perfect and wonderful love story. On unexpected time and place I will meet a man that would totally makes me off guard. And on that same day I will feel that my heart beat so fast and knew that the stranger in front of me will change my life forever. He too will feel the same as he met me. Since then, he will pursue me. He will surprise me with red roses and send me love letters that I could read every day. And even if we just met, we will get along so well and we’ll know each other deeply. We will share our thoughts and dreams. And even our past mistakes and failures will be the bridge to connect us with each other. He is the man of courage and he will fight for me no matter what. He will understand even the weakest part of me. In a short period that we’re getting to know each other he is sure of keeping me forever in his life so he’ll do his proposal to me as how I want it. And of course I would receive that because I am always sure of him since the time I met him. We will be married in the garden full of butterflies flying around us and the place will be dominant in red. He will deliver his vows while crying for happiness and me for the first time will experience the tears of joy. Everyone is happy for us including both our families. Finally, the Pastor would tell us that we are now husband and wife. And the groom would kiss the bride. So we will live happily ever after.
But then the realization came into my mind. I am just a dreamer and a frustrated writer of all I want. I’m creating my own story without including and thinking what my true creator wants? What the author of my life put in this area of my life? Is he going to permit this or he will totally have his own story for me? The only thing that sure is that, God had created a unique love story for me. He already wrote the best part of my life and He knew when, where and how would I met His creation for me. No matter how big, how great and how beautiful my writing is, still God has the power to let it happen. I will still choose to follow Him and what He wants for me for He is my master and my creator.
God loves me so much and He knows what I’m asking. As always, His will is better than my will and my story “my love story” is just little of what He can create amazingly. I received Jesus as my Lord and Savior; I should give to Him everything about my life. I just need to pray and trust him wholeheartedly. No exemption, even MY LOVE STORY!
The best is yet to come and that is HIS STORY FOR ME. 🙂
May 11,2019- Married and have my own love story.
I met my husband in our company outing on May 2016. He was with my friend and so he joined us while we are teasing our friend with him. At first I was just interested to know him for my friend so I asked questions that I realized it’s for me. Is he a Christian”, I asked and my friend said yes. We sat on the same table saw him being busy with online chatting with someone and me as always busy talking to people at the table. We had our own friends while we enjoy the outing. I remember noticing him smiling and enjoying the slide that he and his friend repeatedly try. And that day finished without any other special encounter with him. After that day I received a friend request in facebook and it’s him. I thought it’s just the usual friend request in social media when you met new people and so I accepted him and Of course did a little checking to his profile and just noticed how thin he and his big smile. Then life continuous as normal.
One day at work there this skype message popped up and it’s him again. He greeted me and just wanted to ask about the company mountaineer group which I belong.
I remember seeing his photo quite handsome and reminds me of some good artist I know. So instead of answering his question I teased him first about it. I was very comfortable doing that is as if he is an old friend. Until we realized we’ve been chatting online for quite sometime talking about anything, mountains, Christianity, bible and whatever we think of but we never see each other in person even if we are in the same company.
One day he asked me about the way to Makati from our office. Me as the usual “bida bida” I told him that I can accompany him to where he can ride the UV, so we agreed to see each other after work in front of the elevator. That was the first and I am not sure why I feel quite nervous knowing that we will see each other. I remember when we are walking I can feel and see that he is quite nervous too but as usual we pretended being just friendly with each other.
After that encounter we became more comfortable and reach to a point of getting each other’s mobile number and ended up talking even in weekends. I knew there’s something change in me, I randomly texted him first with a smiley and then we just talk and really enjoyed each other’s story.
Then one day he told me that starbucks have a buy one take one promo and he wanted to treat me after work. After shift we went in that coffee shop he ordered that bogo promo and seat facing each other at the table. I teased him “o baka networking ka pala ah” and he smiled. I don’t know how it started but I remember when he said “Kaya ba tayo close ngayon kasi iniisip mo na magkaibigan lang tayo? ( he asked that question cause within our conversations I told him that I am always comfortable having guy friends without assuming that he will like me. If we are friend we are friends and nothing more) and then he continued “kasi interesado ako sayo as more than friend” 😁
I can’t remember now my reaction good thing it’s wasn’t a first for me, I had an experience that I think I learned how to answer so I told him ” haha talaga ahm kung interesado ka sakin, siguro better we have to know each other better para you can be sure kung may patutunguhan ba tong pagkainteresado mo sakin” and that’s what happened. After that day, we commit our lunch and even after work spending time with each other. He shared things about him and I shared mine.
Until one day, he asked me to go to McDonald, I am quite at fuss why he looked so nervous and can’t look at me straight in the eyes so the usual me teased him again. And he spoke ” wait wag mo ko asarin”, he hand me a red lollipop and he said “gusto kita” and me trying to be my best composure said laughing ” kaya pala” and then I said told him “sigurado ka? Sige I will get this lollipop ah, di ko muna kakainin and pag nagrealize mo na mali ka at di mo na ko gusto you can get this and alam ko na” and I smile.
We continued being friendly together, infact we became more comfortable and really enjoyed each other. After two weeks or so he asked about our age gap, me as an overthinker it upset me, I remember ending our day that I am so down that I have to ride a taxi to go home. I didn’t texted her as the usuals and at home I soaked myself feeling so sad. Then I received a call he told me his feelings and asking me if he can court me. My heart jumped for happiness I remember crying and answered him “syempre” I really thought that his question is telling me that we have to end and that was a night that I can’t forget.
The next day he asked me if he should go to my house as start of his courting but I told him that he should do that on a weekend cause I was thinking he leave so far away and I don’t want him to go home so late because of me and he agreed.
And the rest is history, we are now married.
I knew that he is the one for me. When I got to know him, theres this want in my heart to make him happy. I wanted to be his happiness and I want to keep seeing him happy.
Only God
God is the only one who can understand, love and makes you truly happy. Sometimes man and the world will deceive you that everything will be good in them but that was a big mistake that will always disappoint you on what you expected..
In man you will cry in hurts and sadness.. With God tears will fall for love and happiness..
God’s Gift
Seeing a sunrise is like receiving a surprise of another day to do the things you need to do.
This means that God is giving you a chance to continue what you didn’t finish from yesterday and create a new dream for tomorrow.
Pictures ^ Photos
I am not a photographer or the one who is good in editing. I’m just a person frustrated to create beautiful photos out of a simple picture. I’m kinda confident with what I did, but I do respect your opinion. This is my first time! I’m sure I will do more and will try again next time.
One cloudy morning in Potipot. The two persons there are my friends. They’re my forever friends.
A jaw dropping place. So wow with his beauty. Nice place with a nice weather and cute boat. Very good landscape shot again by my friend.
I did took this photo but I’m so amazed on how my friend made it. Nice one.
Another shot of my friend. Do you know what it is!!!???
Mountain Trips
I am not a professional mountaineer but I do love climbing a mountain. It’s like looking on your dream while taking the challenge. It’s a reminder that it will take a lot of Faith to be on top.
Believe it or not in the middle of Mt. Sembrano there is a small plantation of pineapple that will really amazed you. It’s like enjoying the climb because of the journey and the chances that even if its hard to do it you’ll sure see a beautiful places that worth your try. 🙂
“Good morning sunshine” Sunrise is coming but I think our camp was still enjoying the mood of the morning.. 🙂
I went to camp with my cousins at Mt. Batulao last November 2011. We went on the peak of the mountain and it’s amazing that there still a signal and my mom called to check on me. “She doesn’t know I’m on top of the mountain. “
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